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I didn’t like

die or anything

I’ve just been on addicting as fuck tumblr

that’s all


this is just something that makes no sense

[ ] You hate your body. (I’m actually really comfortable with my physical body, but not so much the way I think or act)
[ ] You have starved yourself.
[x] You have low self esteem.
[ ] You use laxatives.
[ ] You need to be skinnier.
[ ] People always say you’re skinny, but you think fat.
[x] People think you are way too skinny.
[ ] You skip at least one meal a day.
[ ] You limit your calories or check them constantly by compulsion.
Total: 2

[ ] You are hyper most of the time.
[x] You barely pay attention to anything. (True, true, true..unless it’s you know…interesting)
[x] You cannot cooperate with people well. (I’m a difficult person 😐 people who actually cooperate with me should be applauded)
[ ] You seem to never sit still.
[ ] You talk all the time.
[ ] You need attention 24/7. (I hate attention actually…)
[ ] You aren’t very shy.
Total: 2

Bipolar Disorder
[ ] You can act wild at times then the next you are severely depressed.
[x] You are very irritable. (talk to my siblings, they know everything that will set me off)
[ ] You barely get any or no sleep.
[ ] You have very high self esteem at times.
[ ] You have used or abused alcohol, drugs, or sex.
[ ] You have thought of/attempted suicide
[ ] You have the worst mood swings of anyone you know.
Total: 1

Bulimia Nervosa
[ ] You’ve thrown up all your food at one time
[ ] You thrown it up even when you don’t feel sick.
[ ] You have little control over how you eat.
[ ] You use laxatives.
[ ] You eat fast. (I’m a slow eater…)
[ ] You have overly exercised to where you almost fainted/passed out.
[ ] You always say you are fat.
[ ] People think you are way too skinny.
Total: 0

Conduct Disorder
[ ] You are a bully.
[ ] You threaten other people.
[ ] You often find yourself in fights.
[ ] You have used a weapon that could cause injury to others.
[ ] You are cruel to humans and/or animals.
[ ] You have raped/molested someone.
[ ] You destroy property on purpose.
[ ] You always lie.
[ ] You’ve stayed out all night.
[ ] You have/attempted to run away from home.
Total: 0

[x] You are always, or normally, feel sad.
[ ] You always, or normally, are crying. (I went through depression (clinical depression) where I didn’t ever cry…seriously, I just can’t cry without an extreme reason)
[ ] You find no hope in your future.
[ ] You find no longer excitement over the activities you used to love.
[x] You always find yourself around the house or in bed all day. (I never leave the house, whether I was depressed or not because I’m a bit of shut in…not too proud of that…)
[ ] You are anti-social. (anti-social is actually something completely different)
[x] You have low self esteem. (about almost all of my mental health…)
[ ] Everything bad that happens is always your fault.
[ ] Hope is no longer there for you.
Total: 3

Obsessive Compulsive Disorder
[x] You have disturbing thoughts or thoughts you hate.
[x] You have to do a certain thing until it feels right.
[x] You have to keep things in a certain order.
[x] You have harmed yourself.
[ ] You are afraid you will get an STD, or AIDS.
[x] You have to check some stuff over again.
Total: 5

Schizophrenia / Anxiety
[x] You often have hallucinations or sudden memories you can’t escape. …
[ ] You can be confused about reality and fantasy.
[x] You think people are always staring or talking about you.
[x] You have extreme anxiety or fearfulness.
[x] You have difficulty with relationships with family, friends, and opposite/same sex
[x] You do not take care of your hygiene as much as others say you should.
[x] You are very shy.
[x] You often talk to yourself.
Total: 7


So I guess if I were a mental disorder I’d be schizophrenia. woohoo..anyway, I actually have been two of the things there. I am OCD and have been clinically depressed and on antidepressants (I finally stopped taking them a month or so ago)…

nothing interesting has been happening, except I have a good idea for a new fanfic… ; w ;…I’ll get around to writing it eventually.

It seems like everything interesting has stopped happening now that I’m out of school… 😐


Pick 10 artists that you love before reading the questions.

1. My Chemical Romance


3. t.A.T.u

4. The Fratellis

5. Heideroosjes

6. Scouting for Girls

7. Astro’n’out

8. Mika

9. Hey Monday

10. Neon Trees

What was the first song you ever heard by 6? She’s So Lovely (Scouting for girls)

What is your favorite song of 8? Lollipop (I know it’s so original! :D) (Mika)

What kind of impact has 1 left on your life? Kept me from going all depressed…>w>;;…that happens a lot lol (My Chemical Romance)

What are your favorite lyrics of 5? “Een kale klote dag vandaag
Alwéér niks nieuws gebeurt vandaag
Lekker belangrijk, lekker belangrijk” (Heideroosjes)

What is your favorite song by 7?  GAH THERE ARE TOO MANY…! Gravitātei Nē and Kā Luksofors have always been favorites…=.=;; (Astro’n’out)

Is there any song by 3 that makes you sad? Err..I guess All the Things She said was saddening…(t.A.T.u)

How many times have you seen 4 live? …none ;n;…I don’t live anywhere near them anymore…=_= (The Fratellis)

What is your favorite song by 9? Obvious (Hey Monday)

How did you get into 3? I really don’t know…(t.A.T.u)

When did you first get into 2? like a month ago…orz (Lady Gaga)

What is your favorite song by 4? HOLY SHIT I CANNOT CHOOSE SO I WILL LIST MY FAVORITES….Chelsea Dagger, Flathead, Henrietta, Too Much Talk in Tokyo, Creepin Up the Backstairs, Mistress Mable, aaaand Whistle for the Choir (The Fratellis…THEY’RE FUCKING AWESOME)

How many times have you seen 9 live? HAHAH…none (Hey Monday)

What is a good memory concerning 10?  uhhmmm….I wrote something while listening to one of their songs…? (Neon Trees)

Is there a song by 8 that makes you sad? Nope (Mika)

What is your favorite song of 1? *head desk* waay too many…Na Na Na I guess..

Yeah I haven’t been doing much lately! :p

I’m working on some new thing at the moment so mind me working on it…it might be finished by like…4 am lol

oh hai thar

Haven’t done this in a while…

RULE 1. You can only say Guilty or Innocent.
RULE 2. You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!
Now, here’s what you’re supposed to do… And please do not spoil the fun. Copy and paste this into your journal, delete my answers, type in your answers and tag 5 of your friends to answer this. Then see what happens.

1. Asked someone to marry you?

2. Kissed one of your friends?

3. Danced on a table in a bar?

4. Ever told a lie?

5. Had feelings for someone whom you can’t have back?

6. Ever kissed someone of the same sex?

7. Kissed a picture?

8. Slept in until 5 PM?

9. Fallen asleep at work/school?

10. Held a snake?

11. Been suspended from school?

12. Worked at a fast food chain/restaurant?

13. Stolen something?

14. Been fired from a job?

15. Done something you regret

16. Laughed until something you were drinking came out of your nose?

17. Caught a snowflake on your tongue?

18. Kissed in the rain?

19. Sat on a roof top?

20. Kissed someone you shouldn’t?

21. Sang in the shower?

22. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?

23. Shaved your head?

24. Slept naked?

25. Had a boxing membership?

26. Made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

27. Been in a band?

28. Shot a gun?

29. Donated Blood?

30. Eaten alligator meat?

31. Eaten cheesecake?

32. Still love someone you shouldn’t?

33. Have/had a tattoo?

34. Liked someone, but will never tell who?

35. Been too honest?

36. Ruined a surprise?

37. Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated that you can’t walk afterwards?

38. Erased someone in your friends list?

39. Dressed in a woman’s clothes (if you’re a guy) or man’s clothes (if you’re a girl)?

40. Joined a pageant?

41. Been told that you’re handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said?

42. Still have communication w/ your ex?

43. Cheated on someone?

44. Get totally drunk one night and you have an important exam tomorrow morning?

45. A total stranger treated you by paying your fare?

46. Get totally angry that you cried so hard?

47. Tried to stay away from someone for their own good?

48. Thought about suicide?

49. Thought about murder?

50. How about Mass Murder?

51. Rode in a stranger’s vehicle?

52. Stalked someone?

53. Had a girlfriend/boyfriend

Yeah. Like this all matters 😀



Hahha…I’m sick.

Kinda. Well I feel sick D:

Someone please tell me why I’m glad about this? =_=

Anyway, I’m not in a writing mood really. Actually I’m not in much of a doing anything kind of mood. It’s taken me like all day to go and post this post. -_-;;

To be honest, I have stuff I should be doing right now…..

Oh but I just am too not good feeling to go do it now =_=;;



I will write….


My day today, I guess since this is a blog, I’ll blog about my boring life

So I decided I was going to blog about my life today, since this is a blog here.

I got a haircut today.

…….it was actually a trim, but I count that as a haircut. It’s cutting hair=haircut.

I got five million complements on my hair color. Whenever I go to places like a hair salon, and someone is doing whatever with my hair, that happens. “Your hair is such a pretty color!” “"People pay hundreds of dollars to get their hair that color!” “Don’t ever dye your hair!”


What else did I do today?

I ate lunch with my mom, after not seeing her for about a week or so. We ate at a Chinese buffet, but there was sushi there which kind of bothered me because…sushi is Japanese. Oh well, I didn’t eat any (afraid XD).

After that, I went to Books-a-Million to go get my friend Miranda a birthday present =w=;;. I wanted to get her like five million things, but I didn’t have that much money ehe….

So that is my boring life.

I have an idea…

I want to scare the living shit out of my friend Calan.

I’m going to buy him a doll for everything. His birthday? Get him a doll. Christmas? Get him a doll. Anything else? GET HIM A DOLL.

I dunno. I feel like scaring people right now.

My random outbursts….